Wings and Roots

Sometimes when the light lays low just right
I can still see those memories
Dancing across the grassy fields
It all seemed so bright.
Remember when we walked in a line 12 long
Only one light
Inside of the rocks out in Montana
I could write a song.
In that one summer of 19 young years
I saw God
In the huge open skies, the West
There were no fears.
My roots are dug deep deep in the Georgia clay
Gravestones in the city with my name
Raised on sweet tea and yes m’ams
Taught about the Southern way.
And somehow I feel stuck between the two
The West where I found my wings and learned to fly
And the south where I can feel my roots tied deep
And I want my daughter to feel that too.

Would you rather?

Be in a relationship that seemed ultimately doomed or just be single and ok with it?

In don’t think it’s a hard choice, although sad and maybe a little heart breaking when you arrive at this conclusion.

Oh how i wish sometimes that life was a fairytale romance or do I? All those stories have some really effed up element where you are left like say huh?!?

Anyways I deserve the best. I will continue to make myself the best so I will be the best for the best for me. :)

And please make me sloooowww down the friggin pace. Slow your roll take it slow.

I know I need to be more patient and also that I want to be nicer and more positive naturally. Not requiring some man to make me feel redeemed. I need to feel important and awesome and strong from my Own choices not worrying or fading into someone else.

Single and ok with it

reminder Tattoo

I’d like to get a heart or feather or maybe both on my wrists to remind me about my values. To always put love and light first for others and myself – to not let negativity prevail. The concept of love will always rise up. Feather would remind me of freedom, traveling light – experiences triumph materialism. Fly free. Don’t be chained down by anyone or anything including myself.

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My list

I don’t know if I should really put this out here like this, but I figure why not. Right?

My List

Stability (Financial security)
Outdoorsy (Healthy)!
Funny (Happy and positive)
Spark/chemistry (into Me)
Committed
Honest and sincere
Considerate (thoughtful)
Understands/likes kids
Family-oriented
Confident but not narcisistic
Intelligent
Good communication skills
Creative

my thoughts for autumn/fall equinox

now is a time for balance. I don’t typically quote the Bible, but these words ring true, especially in this time of remembering there are always two sides, and we must try for balance.

There is a time for everything,
 and a season for every activity under the heavens: a time to be born and a time to die,
 a time to plant and a time to uproot,
 a time to kill and a time to heal,
 a time to tear down and a time to build,
 a time to weep and a time to laugh,
 a time to mourn and a time to dance,
 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
 a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,
 a time to search and a time to give up,
 a time to keep and a time to throw away,
 a time to tear and a time to mend,
 a time to be silent and a time to speak,
 a time to love and a time to hate,
 a time for war and a time for peace. Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

Sometimes we have to let go when we are not ready. It’s hard to realize the purpose or see any light in those times, but the light is still there shining from within.

It’s important to breathe, just breathe. In and out. Inhale and exhale. And then we can see that we are capable of letting it go. We inhale fresh air and exhale the air we have used. We inhale oxygen and exhale carbon dioxide. We can focus on our breath and nothing else. In and out. Inhale and exhale.

to achieve this balance, we must realize that different tools will help us in different times, so we prepare ourselves with all of our past experiences.  everything we have learned, so when life throws the next hurdle, we can know to jump over it, crawl under it, swim through it, etc. We are capable. We will learn.

for those that are going through a tough time and reading this, know that you are not alone and you will not be in this place forever.  it’s hard and relish in the fact that it is hard.  it is painful and difficult. It’s disappointing and unfair.

just know that in another time you will find joy, happiness, ease, calm. you are loved.

some thoughts from others.

Girls Chase Boys – Ingrid Michaelson

All the broken hearts in the world still beat
Let’s not make it harder than it has to be
Ohh, it’s all the same thing
Girls chase boys chase girls

I’m a little let down but I’m not dead
There’s a little bit more that has to be said
You played me now I play you too
Let’s just call it over

Hallelujah – Jeff Buckley version

I’ve heard there was a secret chord
That David played, and it pleased the Lord
But you don’t really care for music, do you?
It goes like this
The fourth, the fifth
The minor fall, the major lift
The baffled king composing Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah

Your faith was strong but you needed proof
You saw her bathing on the roof
Her beauty in the moonlight overthrew you
She tied you to a kitchen chair
She broke your throne, and she cut your hair
And from your lips she drew the Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah

Baby I have been here before
I know this room, I’ve walked this floor
I used to live alone before I knew you.
I’ve seen your flag on the marble arch
Love is not a victory march
It’s a cold and it’s a broken Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah

There was a time when you let me know
What’s really going on below
But now you never show it to me, do you?
And remember when I moved in you
The holy dove was moving too
And every breath we drew was Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah

Maybe there’s a God above
But all I’ve ever learned from love
Was how to shoot at someone who outdrew you
It’s not a cry you can hear at night
It’s not somebody who has seen the light
It’s a cold and it’s a broken Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah

You say I took the name in vain
I don’t even know the name
But if I did, well, really, what’s it to you?
There’s a blaze of light in every word
It doesn’t matter which you heard
The holy or the broken Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah

I did my best, it wasn’t much
I couldn’t feel, so I tried to touch
I’ve told the truth, I didn’t come to fool you
And even though it all went wrong
I’ll stand before the Lord of Song
With nothing on my tongue but Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah

The Wind – Cat Stevens

I listen to the wind
To the wind of my soul
Where I’ll end up well I think,
Only God really knows
I’ve sat upon the setting sun
But never, never never never
I never wanted water once
No, never, never, never

I listen to my words but
They fall far below
I let my music take me where
My heart wants to go
I swam upon the devil’s lake
But never, never never never
I’ll never make the same mistake
No, never, never, never

and light shines in darkness, and darkness could not overpower it.

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Last Wknd

Saturday was the kickoff of college football season – woohoo! Georgia played Clemson, and although we struggled in the first half, we rocked out the second half thanks to our RB Todd Gurley. AC and I enjoyed going out in Midtown to a few different establishments. It was kind of quiet though – maybe because of Labor Day weekend.

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On Monday, my parents hosted a low country boil backyard party. These were the margaritas my mom made – cute glasses!

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Backyard hammock

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E and Snicky playing tea party with all the babies. Snicky thinks he’s a baby.

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Grass fed beef enchiladas with homemade sauce

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In a large pot, I put 1/4 cup vegetable oil with 2 T of flour, chili powder, garlic salt, cumin and stirred until thick and flour browning. Then I added 1.5 cup of chicken stock and 2/3 jar of marinara sauce (I read you could use tomato sauce or enchilada sauce in can as well). I brought to boil and then turn to low and summer for about 20 min.

In meantime, I browned 1 lb of grass fed organic beef with onion and the Great on Everything spice blend.

Once sauce thickens and beef is brown, take tortilla (I used flour but you can use corn too – put them in a pan with a bit of oil to soften if using corn) and put sauce, beef, cheese and other toppings as you desire (chopped jalapeño or chili peppers, onion, green onion, cilantro, olives, etc,) put enough sauce in bottom of glass casserole dish to cover and then fit in rolled enchiladas, seam side down. Cover with remaining sauce and cheese.

Once in pan, you could put in fridge or even freeze. Once ready to heat, cook about 20 min in 325 oven.

Serve with sour cream, cilantro, avocado, etc.

Enjoy!

What do you put in enchiladas?

For You

When I saw you standing there
I couldn’t help myself but stare
All I wanna do is care
For you.

Something in your eyes
Made me realize
That all of these butterflies are
For you.

When I saw your smile
I knew that I would stay awhile
My feelings are all riled up
For you.

Won’t you be my man
I will try to understand
And do the best I can
For you.

You mean so much to me
That all I want for you to see
Is the best me I can be
For you.

When I saw you standing there
I couldn’t help myself but stare
All I wanna do is care
For you.

Drum

Listen to the train coming down the track -
It’s coming down to take you back,
to take you back where you belong,
to learn the words to your song.

feel the rhythm ~ feel the beat
feel the rhythm through your feet
feel the rhythm ~ feel the beat
rising up now through your feet

Now can you feel the train?
It’s come to clear away the pain.
Cleansing away, there is no sin -
starting fresh, to begin again.

Moving in through your heart
now are you ready to start?

to let it out
to let it go
take it down,
take it slow
beat runs through
begin anew
let it out
let it go
free your rhythm
free your soul

feel the rhythm ~ feel the beat
feel the rhythm through your feet
feel the rhythm ~ feel the beat
rising up now through your feet

Listen to the train coming down the track -
It’s coming down to take you back,
to take you back where you belong,
to learn the words to your song.

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